Tying Up Loose Ends

I'm trying to get some closure on some things by the end of 2010. There's this guy I just met recently. And yesterday, was feeling antsy. I finally asked (thru text cuz he's in San Jose) him, hey, is this going anywhere? Or are we just friends? He said he was in no mood for a relationship right now, which made me realize I do want one... I think. So for now, we both agreed to date as long as well having fun with each other. Fun. I am always JUST fun. And he says he's not going to date around. So we're pretty much exclusively going out? I dont quite understand.

Me and a friend had a falling out about a year ago. recently he's been wanting to hang out. Texting me to invite me to go to this and that. I finally asked a silly question: why all of a sudden the sudden need to want to hang out? It's because I've been inviting him to my roommates' parties and he's putting the past behind him. I had to be honest with him and said that I don't think I'm ready to hang out one on one with him. I'm afraid the same destructive relationship I had with him will resurface. He understood and said he wouldn't invite me for anything right now. I was proud of myself for just being real with myself but at the same time being respectful and not intentionally mean.

I'm also giving a bunch of my things away and cleaning my room. I don't want to start off 2010 with a messy room.

Shopping Around

I recently deleted my Xanga account because it wasn't relevant anymore. Joined Tumblr and even though still on it, the blogging experience isn't there. It's like for people with ADD. Post pics and videos and have people like and reblog them. Tumblarity goes up. Blah blah blah. I just want an easily customizable blog where I can talk about my life and not worry if it's rebloggable. I dont want to think about soundbites that are witty. I actually want people who care about what I write to be able to comment. So here I am, through the recommendation of my roommate. We'll see how this goes.