I'm trying to get some closure on some things by the end of 2010. There's this guy I just met recently. And yesterday, was feeling antsy. I finally asked (thru text cuz he's in San Jose) him, hey, is this going anywhere? Or are we just friends? He said he was in no mood for a relationship right now, which made me realize I do want one... I think. So for now, we both agreed to date as long as well having fun with each other. Fun. I am always JUST fun. And he says he's not going to date around. So we're pretty much exclusively going out? I dont quite understand.
Me and a friend had a falling out about a year ago. recently he's been wanting to hang out. Texting me to invite me to go to this and that. I finally asked a silly question: why all of a sudden the sudden need to want to hang out? It's because I've been inviting him to my roommates' parties and he's putting the past behind him. I had to be honest with him and said that I don't think I'm ready to hang out one on one with him. I'm afraid the same destructive relationship I had with him will resurface. He understood and said he wouldn't invite me for anything right now. I was proud of myself for just being real with myself but at the same time being respectful and not intentionally mean.
I'm also giving a bunch of my things away and cleaning my room. I don't want to start off 2010 with a messy room.
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